Leaving for work = crying!

This morning was the first day I cried because I had to leave Emma to go to work. I ran out of time this morning and didn't get to spend any time with her.

At first I blamed it on the fact that I had to rewash bottles. I was griping to myself while I was at the kitchen sink washing bottles, thinking about how I needed to finish putting on my make up and fixing my hair. How I still needed to get dressed. How these bottles weren't going to be dry and that I'd have to dry them before I left. How I hadn't had more than 5 minutes to look at, talk to, interact, or snuggle with Emma. I had to blame something or someone other than myself. I just had to find something else to blame, and the bottles were it! At least bottles don't have feelings.

On the drive into work I remembered that I was really tired this morning so I went back to bed after feeding Emma at 4:30 instead of staying up and getting things done and myself ready like I should have. It wasn't the bottles fault or anyone's fault that I ran out of time this morning. It really was my fault and that realization didn't make me feel any better, though I managed to keep the tears in check at this point.

About half an hour after I got to work, I got this email from Scott:

Subject: Message from Emma

Mommy -

Good morning! I am playing in my jungle gym right now. I asked daddy to send you an e-mail since I can't type. Or talk. But he knows what I mean. I know this morning didn't go like you planned. I hope you have a good day anyways. It's okay that you have to go to work. We can snuggle and cuddle when you get home. I like snuggling with you. I just wanted you to know that daddy and I miss you when you go to work and that it's okay. Daddy says that you don't have to work on Thursday or Friday because of Thanksgiving. That made me smile :) But I have no idea what Thanksgiving is. Daddy and I love you so much and can't wait for you to get home every day. So have a good day today! Daddy and I love you!!

Emma

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That just made my heart melt and I started crying again. It's a good thing that I have an office with a door!

About 5 minutes after I got that email, and right when I finished reading it, I got a phone call from Scott. He wanted to know how I was and if I wanted to go to lunch today with him and Emma. So today we're going to lunch! I can't wait.

Scott is such an awesome husband and daddy!!! It was so sweet of him to send the email and then to think of us going to lunch together today. I wouldn't have thought of it because my brain was in 'so sad I miss my sweet baby' mode and was stuck in cry gear. I love Scott and Emma so much! I know that Emma is in good hands with her daddy!